February 05, 2008

Interesting Read ...
Biracial, but not like me
In search of his identity, Barack Obama took the opposite path that I did. But we arrived at the same place -- and I'm voting for him.
By Gary Kamiya

Feb. 05, 2008 I've been leaning toward Barack Obama ever since the presidential race began. But until recently, I haven't been ready to make a final decision. I admit that I was initially drawn to him primarily because of his race: As a black man offering racial peace, he promised a kind of national healing, a chance to both symbolically and literally affirm that America can overcome its greatest divide.

But I wasn't going to vote for Obama just because he was black, or because he had the gift of appealing to people across the spectrum. I agreed with his staunchly liberal positions on the issues (if I hadn't, I never would have considered voting for him), but there was a fuzziness about some of them that was a little troubling to me. He seemed stronger on the high intellectual and spiritual themes than on the nuts and bolts of governance. And I had some ambivalent feelings about his political leitmotif, his call for national reconciliation. God knows we need it. But after the devastation wrought by the Bush presidency, it would take a truly extraordinary politician, and person, to bring the country together. Was he that person?

To try to find out, I went out and got Obama's autobiography, "Dreams From My Father: A Story of Race and Inheritance." And after reading it, I've made up my mind: I'm voting for him.

Part of the reason, I admit, is that he's a superb writer. Most books written by politicians have titles like "Reclaiming America's Future" or "Return to Greatness" or "Tales of Ordinary Heroism" or "We Are the People" (actually, that one was the campaign slogan in "Taxi Driver"). They are books full of inspiring anecdotes about decent, unassuming Americans, paeans to the core values that make our country a shining experiment in democracy, stories of the author's lifelong commitment to making this great nation even greater, etc., etc. Books composed of 100 percent recycled plastic bromides. Books you'd rather go blind than be forced to read.

"Dreams From My Father" isn't one of these. It may be one of the best books ever written by a politician. It is a real book by a real writer. Its theme is at once intimate and profound. Its sentences move with grace and power, its chapters have an architectural logic, and it builds toward an inspiring conclusion.

Obama's prose alone was almost enough to make me vote for him. But what tipped the scales was the portrait that emerged -- of a man who has been tested and found true, who has proved he's ready to assume the most important job in the world. For the question he answered was the hardest one of all: Who am I?

Of all the qualities a president needs, self-knowledge may be the most important: It's the foundation of everything else. And Obama's self-knowledge is all the more impressive because he had to work so hard to gain it. "Dreams From My Father" is the story of Obama's personal evolution from parochialism to a universal humanism. It's also the story of how a man blessed with a powerful analytical mind developed emotional intelligence along the way. Obama's tortured interior quest forced him to stare down all the demons in his, and America's, racial closet.

It isn't the racial quest that I expected, or one that I can easily relate to. But for me, that makes his achievement even more impressive.

Like Obama, I am biracial. My father is Japanese-American, my mother of Scottish and English descent. I'm nine years older than Obama. Like him, I grew up in a racially relaxed environment (Berkeley, Calif., in my case, Hawaii in his), where as a child I didn't consider my racial identity noteworthy, let alone a problem. And also like him, I am wary of labels, and believe that what unites human beings is much greater than what divides them.

But that's where our similarities end. For we took completely different paths to get to the same post-racial destination. I took the easy road to colorblindness. I regarded all attempts to label me as meaningless, refused to regard myself as either exclusively "white" or "Asian," and never gave my mixed-race identity a second thought. And before reading his book, I foolishly assumed that Obama had done more or less the same thing.

In fact, he did just the reverse. He took the hard road. For whatever reasons -- his absent African father, his relation to his mother, the identity traps and distortions thrown up by America's racist history, his own unique DNA -- he chose to self-consciously affirm his identity as a black man. He agonized over what it meant to be a black American. He feared being seen as a sellout. In an attempt to find out what blackness was, and by extension what he was, he threw himself into the black community, working as a community organizer in Chicago. He was driven by a primordial quest: to find out who he was, and to become that person.

In the end, he succeeded in his goal: To put it crudely, he made himself black. But at the very moment he attained his goal, he also transcended it. Obama had too much integrity to believe that "blackness" in itself meant anything, so he simultaneously became black and something irreducible to color. By so doing, he kept faith both with his fellow American blacks, who have been forced by racism to consider their own color as a constituent part of their identity, and also with people of all races.

The essence of Obama's politics, his call for reconciliation and unity, is thus deeply grounded in the long and painful creation of his own double identity. It is, almost literally, sealed in blood -- the mixed blood, black and white, that flows through his veins. With Obama, the movement is always toward a double affirmative. Not neither black nor white, which is the way I and many mixed-race people identify ourselves, but both black and something larger.

For someone like me, who completely opted out of racial categories, it isn't easy to understand someone who chose to embrace them. When it comes to something as intimate as the construction of our identities, we all reflexively feel that our way is the "right" way -- any other way is profoundly threatening to our sense of ourselves. As someone who has never belonged to any racial or ethnic "community" and has always been averse to identity politics and its accompanying assertions of racial guilt and victimhood, it isn't easy for me to understand or appreciate Obama's choices or his life. And maybe I'll never understand it fully, not least because being half-Japanese is nothing like being half-black.

In fact, there's a scene in "Dreams From My Father" that crystallized the differences between Obama and me. Obama asks a mixed-race student named Joyce if she's going to the Black Students' Association meeting. Joyce replies, "I'm not black, I'm multiracial," and asks why she should have to choose between her two parents. Obama writes, "It sounded real good, until you noticed that [those who said this] avoided black people. It wasn't a matter of conscious choice, necessarily, just a matter of gravitational pull, the way integration always worked, a one-way street ... Only white culture could be nonracial ... And we, the half-breeds and the college degrees, take a survey of the situation and think to ourselves, Why should we get lumped in with the losers if we don't have to?"

As someone who identifies with Joyce, I was troubled by Obama's take on her. His cutting line about "multiracials" not wanting to "get lumped in with the losers" hints that those who reject the label "black" are somehow race traitors (something I've been accused of myself, although the issue with mixed-race Asians is much less fraught than it is with mixed-race blacks, since Asians don't have to contend with the one-drop rule). But who made the rule that people of whatever race or tribe, or fractional portion thereof, are morally required to demonstrate racial or tribal solidarity? That's a dangerous road to go down.

But Obama himself is honest enough to grapple with this same criticism, and ultimately arrives at a much more nuanced and sympathetic take on the different choices mixed-race people make. "I knew I was being too hard on poor Joyce. The truth was I understood her, her and all the other black kids who felt the way she did," he writes. "In their mannerisms, in their speech, in their mixed-up hearts, I kept recognizing pieces of myself. And that's exactly what scared me. Their confusion made me question my racial credentials all over again."

In the end, Obama is able to get beyond his obsession with racial credentials. But the commentator Shelby Steele, who like Obama is the child of a white mother and black father, doesn't think he got far enough beyond them. In his short book "A Bound Man: Why We Are Excited About Obama and Why He Can't Win," he argues that Obama's attempt to have it both ways -- to be at once black and not-black -- is not an act of transcendence, but a double bind. For Steele, Obama hasn't completely moved beyond an orthodox racial essentialism: He's trapped by his need to simultaneously assert black solidarity and a universal identity. This double pose, Steele argues, prevents Obama from realizing who he really is.

Steele's critique raises a central philosophical issue concerning identity -- what the French philospher Jean-Paul Sartre called "bad faith." Sartre defines bad faith as the denial of one's (unknowable) human freedom in order to playact as a known object -- in this case a "black man."

I am mostly an admirer of Steele's writings about race. But his criticism of Obama seems excessively abstract, trapped by theoretical constructs. For black-white relations simply are messy. If consciously adopting a black racial mask is an act of bad faith, it is a bad faith forced upon blacks by the white majority. W.E.B. Du Bois anatomized this in his famous description of the "double consciousness" of black Americans. "This American world ... yields him no true self-consciousness, but only lets him see himself through the revelation of the other world," he wrote in "The Souls of Black Folk." "It is a peculiar sensation, this double-consciousness, this sense of always looking at one's self through the eyes of others, of measuring one's soul by the tape of a world that looks on in amused contempt and pity. One ever feels his two-ness, -- an American, a Negro; two souls, two thoughts, two unreconciled strivings; two warring ideals in one dark body, whose dogged strength alone keeps it from being torn asunder."

Not everyone can easily get out of this trap. But it can be overcome -- by "dogged strength," by a simple refusal to measure oneself by the "tape of the world." (Colin Powell's parents taught him a wonderful mantra on this: "My race is someone else's problem -- it's not my problem.") And my way, Joyce's way, is not the only way to deal with race. Tribalism need not be completely jettisoned. Tribalism and universalism can jostle together; other-derived and self-derived identities are not mutually exclusive.

Steele's critique misses the forest for the trees. The larger truth is that Obama is carving out a new racial terrain in America. The overall movement of the book is toward colorblindness. He is a living demonstration of how a universalist ethics can coexist with, and be larger than, a particularist one. Obama may not be the absolutely flawless post-racial prophet Steele wants, but he's close enough. Maybe they don't exist anyway.

"Dreams From My Father" made me rethink my own racial-identity choices -- or non-choices. Not in any simple, I-was-wrong or I-was-right way, but in a more complex fashion. It made sense for me to reject the group identity that he embraced -- it wasn't who I was. But Obama's choice made sense for him. His quest allowed him to both discover and create a sense of community as he made his way, first as a half-stranger, then as someone coming home, through the black world. And perhaps it gave him something bigger: empathy. Not just for blacks, but for everyone.

The most moving parts of Obama's book are its transformative scenes -- moments when, at the edge of despair, he manages to humble himself and move forward, into a life larger, more inclusive, more compassionate.

One of those transformative moments comes during Obama's undergraduate days, after he had given a well-received speech urging the university to divest from South Africa. A black friend, Regina, praised his talk, but Obama cynically denied that it had any meaning, saying he just did it for the applause and that it wouldn't change anything. Regina retorted that he was selfish and shallow -- "It's not just about you" -- and angrily left. Left alone, Obama suddenly realized she was right. His mother had told him the same thing, but he had rejected it, putting it down as "white" truths. "Who told you that being honest was a white thing? ... You've lost your way, brother. Your ideas about yourself -- about who you are and who you might become -- have grown stunted and narrow and small.

"How had that happened? I started to ask myself, but before the question had even formed in my mind, I already knew the answer. Fear ... The constant, crippling fear that I didn't belong somehow ... that I would always remain an outsider, with the rest of the world, black and white, always standing in judgment."

Then Obama modulates into something like a vision, at once real and transcendent. He imagines the face of Regina's grandmother, "her back bent, the flesh of her arms shaking as she scrubs an endless floor. Slowly, the old woman lifted her head to look straight at me, and in her sagging face I saw that what bound us together went beyond anger or despair or pity. What was she asking of me, then? Determination, mostly. The determination to push ahead against whatever power kept her stooped instead of standing straight."

And then, an even larger vision. "The old woman's face dissolved from my mind, only to be replaced by a series of others. The copper-skinned face of the Mexican maid, straining as she carries out the garbage. The face of Lolo's mother [Lolo was Obama's Indonesian stepfather] drawn with grief as she watches the Dutch burn down her house. The tight-lipped, chalk-colored face of Toots [Obama's white grandmother] as she boards the six-thirty bus that will take her to work. Only a lack of imagination, a failure of nerve, had made me think that I had to choose between them. They all asked the same thing of me, all these grandmothers of mine."

Finally, the lesson, to be carried forward: "My identity might begin with the fact of my race, but it didn't, couldn't, end there. At least that's what I would choose to believe." Through a long and arduous search for blackness, Obama arrived at humanity.

In a certain way, Obama's odyssey in "Dreams From My Father" mirrors that of the boy hero of the greatest novel America has produced -- a book that is also about race, and the terrible wound that slavery left on this country and all its people. Huck Finn has been abandoned by his father, a bitter, drunken racist, and has to make his way through the world alone. But actually, he is not alone: a fugitive, he drifts down the Mississippi River, the river that runs through America's heart, with Jim, a runaway slave. And in the course of their journey, the wise and kindly Jim becomes Huck's father -- and, by implication, the father of every American. The pathos of Twain's masterpiece is it redeems our nation's dark history by allowing the despised slave to raise, and ultimately teach the meaning of life to, the lost and innocent boy.

Obama's quest is identical, except the colors are reversed. In search of an absent black father, he tries to become authentically black. And it is only when he learns that his father is all too human that he finally comes to understand that he is the child of both black and white, and ultimately of everyone, of all colors. "All these grandmothers of mine."

The man who emerges from this book has the integrity, the wisdom, the "dogged strength," to fight for a reborn America. And he also represents something larger than himself: He embodies hope. But that hope will only become real if the American people make it real. For hope is just a vessel. You have to fill it.


-- By Gary Kamiya

January 31, 2008

Feb's CARE Team Volunteer Opps

Traveling Food Circus
Mondays, Feb 4th, 11th, 18th & 25th
Join us for our weekly food distribution at Cabrini. We'll sort through our Trader Joe's food donation, bag up the good stuff and hand it out to residents. This is a good one.
Cabrini Service Connector
1230 N. Larrabee
1-3pm


Puppetry! (Session 4 of 4)
Tuesday, February 5th

The moment we've all been waiting for - our puppeteers at the Logan Square Boys & Girls Club have worked tirelessly during the past few months to create puppets and stories to match. We need you to help with the performance, including participating in the puppet show and encouraging the kids.

Logan Square Boys & Girls Club
3228 W. Palmer Ave.
5-7pm


Kids' News
Wednesdays, Feb 6th, 13th, 20th & 27th

Help us create a newscast by kids! We're working with kids to write and videotape news pieces as if they were real reporters and anchors. The kids practice their writing and speaking, and you get to help out.
826Chi
1331 N. Milwaukee Ave.
4-5:15pm


(g)love 11
Saturday, February 9th

Join us for our last (g)love of the season. We'll make CarePacks - bags filled with a pair of gloves, a hat, socks and some food. Then we'll walk around town and pass out CarePacks to those in need. You've distributed almost 500 CarePacks this season!

Church of the Ascension
1133 N. LaSalle Dr.
10am-1pm


Getting a Job with a History
Saturday, February 23rd

This is for folks out there who are finding it difficult to get jobs partially due to criminal backgrounds. Can your record be expunged? Sealed? How do you approach a job interview? Come listen to our guest speakers and discuss these issues with patrons of the Center.

Inspiration Café's Engagement Center
4715 N. Sheridan Rd.
10am-12pm
If you need driving directions to any of these events, please try www.mapquest.com. For public transportation, try www.yourcta.com. If you need a ride, please select "Need Transportation" when you sign up.

January 16, 2008

January CARE Team Volunteer Opportunties

... a little late but still kickin'!


Mock Job Interviews
Saturday, January 19th
Last time we were at Inspiration Cafe's Engagement Center, volunteers noticed that people were having a tough time finding jobs. Helpful as we are, we've decided to bring in a professional headhunter to give some pointers. But wait! We need you to practice interviewing skills with people.

Inspiration Cafe's Engagement Center

4715 N. Sheridan10am-12pm


Dignity Idol 3
Tuesday, January 15th
The holidays are over and it's still cold outside. You could sled down your front stairs, binge on hot chocolate, or join us for another talent-laden Dignity Idol. Better yet, amuse yourself while amusing fellow volunteers and Diner patrons alike: Share a talent. Sing, display your artwork, play the harmonica - whatever you like. To display a talent, simply email Jessica at jessica@mgrf.org.

Holy Covenant United Methodist Church

925 W. Diversey6:30-8:30pm

If you need a ride, please select "Need Transportation" when you sign up.

Unite For Sight Fifth Annual International Health & Development Conference
Building Global Health For Today and Tomorrow
April 12-13, 2008
Yale University, New Haven, Connecticut

Keynote Addresses By: Dr. Jeffrey Sachs, Dr. Sonia Sachs, Dr. Susan Blumenthal, Dr. Jim Yong Kim, and Dr. Allan Rosenfield Plus More Than 180 Featured Speakers

Register For Conference - EARLY BIRD RATE ( $75 students, $100 all others)

REGISTER NOW TO SECURE LOWEST RATE. RATE INCREASES AFTER JANUARY 31st

Who should attend? Anyone interested in international health, public health, international development, medicine, nonprofits, eye care, philanthropy, microfinance, social entrepreneurship, bioethics, economics, anthropology, health policy, advocacy, environmental health, service-learning, medical education, and public service.

Keynote Addresses
"Global Health: Challenges and Opportunities in the 21st Century," Susan Blumenthal, MD, MPA, Former US Assistant Surgeon General; Senior Advisor For Health and Medicine; Former Deputy Assistant Secretary for Women's Health, U.S. Department of Health and Human Services; Clinical Professor of Psychiatry at Georgetown School of Medicine and Tufts University Medical Center

"Bridging the Implementation Gap in Global Health," Jim Yong Kim, MD, PhD,Co-Founder, Partners in Health; Director, Francois Xavier Bagnoud Center for Health and Human Rights; Francois Xavier Bagnoud Professor of Health and Human Rights, Harvard School of Public Health; Chair, Department of Social Medicine, Harvard Medical School; Chief of the Division of Social Medicine and Health Inequalities, Brigham and Women's Hospital; Former HIV/AIDS Director at World Health Organization

"Issues in Global Women's Health," Allan Rosenfield, MD, Dean, Mailman School of Public Health, Columbia University

"Common Wealth: Economics For A Crowded Planet," Jeffrey Sachs, PhD, Director of Earth Institute at Columbia University; Quetelet Professor of Sustainable Development, Professor of Health Policy and Management, Columbia University; Special Advisor to Secretary-General of the United Nations Ban Ki-moon

"Millennium Village Project", Sonia Ehrlich Sachs,, MD, MPH, Health Coordinator, Millennium Villages

For more information and registration: http://www.unitefor sight.org/ conference/ 2008

December 21, 2007

HAPPY HOLIDAYS ... and HAPPY 2008!!!!!

May the love, peace, and joy of this season be upon you and your loved ones ... always!

Much love ... hugs ... and other unmentionables!!! ;O

December 03, 2007

Welcome to CareTeam December!

Those of you who participated in (g)love 8 on November 17th were part of CareTeam history. That day, volunteers created and distributed 280 CarePacks to people from Uptown to Downtown. You all are wonderful! Join us for another record-breaking (g)love on December 15th.

Traveling Food Circus
Mondays, Dec. 3rd, 10th, 17th, 24th & 31st

Join us as we sort through our weekly Trader Joe's food donation to bag combinations of meat, bread, fruit & dessert. Then help us distribute them to folks on the Near North Side. Please dress warmly and get ready to smile when you pass someone a meal.

Seward Park
375 W Elm 1-3pm

Puppetry (Session 2 of 4)
Tuesday, December 4th

The youth created their stories and are focused on their characters. Glitter, paint and marker should do the trick. Help us stylize the puppets so that they're ready for the youth puppet show.


Logan Square Boys & Girls Club
3228 W Palmer 5-7 pm

Cold Party
Saturday, December 8th

Spend a few hours with some of Uptown's homeless to keep them warm. Offer socks, hats and gloves; make hot apple cider while playing board games, painting and just generally socializing. This is about warmth and relaxation.

Inspiration Cafe's Engagement Center
4715 N Sheridan 10am-12pm

Team Trivia & Dance Off
Wednesday, December 12th

In the midst of another grand holiday season, we bring you all things Holiday. Forget Christmas, though. We're exploring the lesser knowns. Take, for example, National Take It In Your Ear Day, which you shall celebrate December 8th. So come out, join a men's team, and figure out what National Pepper Pot Day is.

REST Men's Shelter
941 W Lawrence 8-9:30pm

(g)love 9
Saturday, December 15th

What success so far! We distributed 280 CarePacks in November with an unusual amount of energy for a Saturday morning. Are you up for it this December? We need your help to create CarePacks - bags filled with cold weather gear, toiletries and food. Then we pass them out to folks who need them.

Epworth United Methodist Church
5253 N Kenmore Ave 9am-1pm

Art at Dignity Diner
Tuesday, December 18th

Come sit next to some of Dignity Diner's talented artists to experience what can only be called interactive art. Sit down and paint with a patron. Ask folks where they get their ideas! We use lots of paint, pencils, charcoal and markers. Whether or not you're artistic, you're invited.

Holy Covenant United Methodist Church
925 W Diversey 6:30-8:30pm

If you need driving directions to any of these events, please try www.mapquest.com. For public transportation, try www.yourcta.com. If you need a ride, please select "Need Transportation" when you sign up.

November 15, 2007

Uncommon Ground JB Tribute at Metro-Nov. 18

Sunday, November 18:Uncommon Ground & Metro Present…

The 10th Annual JEFF BUCKLEY TRIBUTE featuring

DOROTHY SCOTT
OLD DOG MUSIC
RYAN GROFF
SPENCER MICHAUD
APRIL SMITH
ALPHA REV
ANNA D’ALOISIO
CATHERINE HARRISON

$10/ All Ages / Doors: 4PM / Show: 5PM

TICKETS AVAILABLE AT:All TicketMaster locationsCharge by phone: 312.559.1212
Internet sales http://www.ticketmaster.com/The Metro Box Office in the Official Metro Store (no service fee)


ARTISTS PAY TRIBUTE TO JEFF BUCKLEY AT METRO NOVEMBER 18

For the past ten years, artists from all over the globe have come to Chicago to pay tribute to Jeff Buckley at the annual Jeff Buckley Tribute Festival. This year, on the tenth anniversary of the festival, Metro is pleased to partner with Uncommon Ground to will host the grand finale tribute concert on November 18th, 2007. Artists that will play their versions of Buckley’s songs as well as originals include Dorothy Scott, Alpha Rev, Ryan Groff, Anna D’Aloisio, Spencer Michaud, Catherine Harrison and April Smith. All net proceeds for the night will benefit The Old Town School of Folk Music Scholarships, which provides financial support for musicians of all ages to attend classes.

Jeff Buckley was born in California's Orange County in 1966. He had emerged in New York City's avant-garde club scene in the 1990's as one of the most remarkable musical artists of his generation, acclaimed by audiences, critics, and fellow musicians alike. On two snowy nights in February of 1994, Jeff Buckley played legendary sets at Uncommon Ground. Buckley’s unforgettable performance at Metro in 1995 was recorded and released as a live DVD, Live in Chicago, in 2000. Sadly, he died in a tragic drowning accident in Memphis on May 29, 1997.

Inspired by Jeff’s talent, the folks at Uncommon Ground decided to honor his memory. Since his death in 1997, they have put on a tribute concert every year, benefiting local charities. This event, which is supported by Jeff’s family, sells out every year in minutes. Jeff Buckley's mother, Mary Guibert, has flown in for this event on many occasions, and artists have come from countries such as France, Italy, Denmark, Holland, Mexico, UK, Australia and many others to perform at the tribute. Because this is the 10th anniversary of the concert, the grand finale of 3 nights of concerts will be held at Metro in order to accommodate all the fans we expect to turn out for the celebration.

The 10th Annual Jeff Buckley Tribute is scheduled to take place on November 16th & 17th at uncommon ground & November 18th, 2007 at Metro. All net proceeds for the night will benefit The Old Town School of Folk Music Scholarships, which provides financial support for musicians of all ages to attend classes.

October 31, 2007

November CARE Team Volunteer Opportunities

Want to be a Mentor ? Murals is the MGR Foundation’s art & drama program that works with primary and secondary Chicago Public School students to address issues of violence in our communities. We’re looking for people who have a genuine interest in working with youth and believe in non-violence as a tool for conflict resolution. There’s no need to be good at art or drama, though it's a plus. Because Murals runs at multiple sites and at different times, please feel free to contact Conal [KAH-null], Murals Program Director at conal@mgrf.org or (773) 313-0075 for commitment details and info.

CareTeam News: We’re creating more project-based events – that is, we’ll work with a particular organization on a particular project for a number of sessions. You can come to whichever sessions you like; if you don’t come to the first one, you can still come to any of the remaining. And of course, keep your ideas coming. We’re always looking for new partner organizations and thinking about projects to do – and you usually have the best ideas.

Traveling Food Circus (a.k.a. CareTeam Eats)
Mondays, November 5th 12th 19th 26th
We’re at a different site! For the month of November, we’ll be meeting at Seward Park , which is smack dab between some of Chicago ’s poorest and wealthiest neighborhoods. Join us in sorting, bagging and distributing food to people in the neighborhood who need it. Feel free to talk with people and ask them what else they need; this could be the beginning of something else . . . .
Seward Park
375 W Elm St
1-3pm
I'd like to lead this event on one of these dates.

Puppetry (Session 1 of 4)
Tuesday, November 6th
Please do not send us your used socks, as they will be rejected. Working with elementary school youth, we’re making puppets and then developing plays with intricate plots. During session 4, we’ll be performing our puppet plays for each other.
Logan Square Boys & Girls Club
3228 W Palmer
5-7pm
I'll volunteer for this event.
I'd like to lead this event.

Focus, People.
Saturday, November 10th
What kinds of volunteer events would you like to see in the future? What does it mean to lead an event? How do we select sites? What would you like to try? Come to CareTeam’s first monthly meeting to give input, ask questions, and design future events.
CareTeam Central
5097 N Elston
10-11:30am (w/ light breakfast)
I’d like to come.

And Now, the News (Session 1 of 3)
Sunday, November 11th
We provide you with a Sunday paper and you get to check it out with a senior at the Nathalie Salmon House. As Sundays are the ultimate newspaper-reading days, this is a perfect opportunity for you to update your new senior friend on whatever s/he’s interested in: travel, local news, the funnies, etc. And if you don’t feel like reading, come to the kitchen and make brunch (whatever that is).
Nathalie Salmon House
7320 N Sheridan , 5th floor
10:30-1pm (come for any period of time)
I'll volunteer for this event.
I'd like to lead this event.

Team Trivia! (Theme: Biology)
Wednesday, November 14th
Team players welcome. We’re continuing our usually-noisy team trivia with the new theme of biology. Why? Because we’ve run out of sports questions. Hey - if you have a theme suggestion, we’re all ears. Prizes are McDonald’s gift certificates, which are highly treasured.
REST Men’s Shelter
941 W Lawrence
8-9:30pm
I'll volunteer for this event.
I'd like to lead this event.

(g)love 8
Saturday, November 17th
The cold season is arriving, and for some of us it’s already too cold. Join us as we begin another (g)love season by gathering to pack bags of cold weather gear and food. Then take to the streets and pass them out to people who need them (and who’ll likely thank you for them).
Epworth United Methodist Church
5253 N Kenmore
9-12pm
I'll volunteer for this.
I'd like to lead this event.

Dignity Diner Artwork
Tuesday, November 20th
At 6 O’Clock We Eat was an incredible exhibit, and we’d like to thank all of you who came out, as well as Chicago Public Radio, TimeOut Chicago and Northwestern's Medill School of Journalism for spreading the word. For those of you didn’t get a chance to participate, it’s not too late: We’re continuing our artwork and now using different mediums.
Holy Covenant United Methodist Church
925 W Diversey
6:30-8:30pm
I'll volunteer for this.
I'd like to lead this event.



*If you need driving directions to any of these events, please try http://www.mapquest.com/. For public transportation, try http://www.yourcta.com/. If you need a ride, please let us know by selecting “Need Transportation” when you sign up.

October 25, 2007

National Make A Difference Day ...

... is almost here!

What is Make A Difference Day?

Make A Difference Day is the most encompassing national day of helping others, a celebration of neighbors helping neighbors. Everyone can participate. Make A Difference Day is an annual event that takes place on the fourth Saturday of every October. The next event is Saturday, October 27, 2007.

This year, I won't be with 'the crew' (boo-hoo!) but there's always a cause, community one can volunteer our time with. A look around your community might inspire with ideas of what needs to be done. Here's your opportunity to start being part of the solution.

October 22, 2007

Am I Beautiful?

Unfortunately I believe this question is culturally defined and practiced. Growing up, I was not exposed to a standard of beauty that many of my friends were. My mami and other such figures didn't wear makeup, dress provacatively and other such demeaning acts. These women were of high distinction and respect. These were the women to emulate. What could makeup add to that? I am ever so thankful for having them in my life and shaping my world for the better. Now ...

Finding myself teetering between two distinctive cultures, I find myself looking into my bathroom mirror, surveying all of my flaws. (Thankfully it is not a full-length mirror. Honestly though, I would probably have too much time on my hands if I took those flaws seriously.) Of course, I have had friends who have told me that I would look so much more prettier if only I would wear makeup and arrange for a girls' night out. After much taunting, I would acquiesce and await the results of their work minutes later. Sometimes the results have been downright horrifying but they all made me feel 'different'. That person staring back at me was not 'me'. What was so wrong with 'me' that had to change? Better still, why was I so unacceptable to you? Thankfully girls' night out turned into seemingly endless nights of talking and sharing with a new group of friends.

Please do not get me wrong, I do enjoy dressing up and whatnot but I do not view it as something that should be demanded of me. It is just so sad to watch other women obsess about this and/or that and how it all can be solved if only we do this and/or that. Why?

What prompted the topic of this blog entry is a Dove movie "Onslaught" (which is down below). I do not want to ruin for you, so I will not go into details. My hope is that you watch it. If you see pieces of yourself in it, ask yourself why.

October 17, 2007

October 16, 2007

In with the New ...

... Out the Old! Some changes are good, some bad. (OH, BOY!!!)

I thought I would change the format of this blog to have some semblance of 'newness' in my life. Besides, the old blog was hard to view for some -- sorry! I do hope to keep the newbie updated more often than I have in the past ... well, I wouldn't hold my breath on it!

ENJOY! (or not!)

October 11, 2007

Interesting Read ...

Below is a reply -- the actual question is long and tedious to read -- to a "Dear Cary" article featured on salon.com. While we all may not struggle with our sexual identity, maybe comfort can be found within Cary's reply.

Dear Apparently Definitely Bisexual,

I fear that I do not have a very good answer for you, but I will do my best. Deeply idealistic people might, with the best of intentions, suggest you create an arrangement to fulfill these desires and fantasies. And maybe you can, within your current situation. Whatever you decide to do, it is certainly not a question of one pat answer.

That, of course, would be an oversimplification, but ... so ... oh, damn, I smell burning rubber! No, seriously, I had this little electric heater on and it was cooking my tennis shoes!
Am I serious enough to help you come to grips with your bisexuality, if I can barely keep my tennis shoes from catching fire? This troubles me -- though it is thematically appropriate: We face the things that are before us whatever they are! Even if they are burning tennis shoes!
Anyway, I would certainly bore both of us silly if I simply said, "Go see a therapist." What is a therapist going to do? Help you see more clearly what you already know -- that you are attracted to women but you're married already?

At the same time, a therapist who is good at problem solving and who has some personal experience in this area may be able to help you. And visualizing a possible future may also be useful. Looking toward the future, perhaps you will keep your marriage together but, over time, with the right woman, settle into a discreet, middle-class, longtime attachment -- with benefits. Perhaps a person will come along who gets where you're coming from and won't be too demanding and will let you experience the things you so fervently desire to experience, and maybe you will be able to manage this day-to-day, and maybe your husband will sort of know and sort of accept it, and maybe he will even openly and concretely and fully accept it, and maybe in the haze of our humanity, where it merges into the mystery of identity and biology and fate, maybe in that hazy gray area where so much of our identity seems to fall, you can find some provisional peace and joy. Perhaps without too much lying and hiding but also without too much open conflict, without too much cliché but also without too much dishonesty with self and others, without too much gnashing of teeth and sleepless nights, without too much interfering in the lives of others and making unfulfillable promises to people who want you to change your life completely, without too much guilt and too much shame and too much recrimination for past mistakes, without too many urgent late-night inquiries directed at gods and goddesses unknown, you can accommodate this aspect of yourself, which is, like the rest of you, sacred, if we take ourselves to be sacred at all, without taking ourselves too seriously. And perhaps along the way, it will become clear that your marriage to this man cannot last. But let's take it one step at a time.

I say this because, you know, this is the complex territory of compromise to which your desires are leading you.

Here is the ethical and moral problem in a nutshell, as I, an amateur, see it. We are not completely responsible for the longings that arise in us, nor are most of us able to know them completely. For those of us who have the time to do a great deal of reading, talking and introspection, such as the upper classes who are not required to work for a living, and for those of us who can pay for the expensive attentions of highly trained and compassionate professionals, the intricate patterns of desire that shape our sexuality might over time become sufficiently clear that we could take responsibility for them. And we might then also have the resources to deal with the consequences of accepting them and trying to live by them. But how can most of us, who barely have time to complete the chores that keep our family fed before we fall exhausted into bed, how can we take responsibility and act ethically and morally and meet our own desires when we cannot even see clearly where those desires come from or where they might lead? Is it right, then, for those of us who are not rich enough to afford ample time for deep introspection and expensive analysis, to simply shut down any feelings that seem to threaten our status quo? That doesn't seem right. And yet is it right to disrupt other people's lives by disclosing previously unknown or repressed or unacknowledged drives that now threaten to cause fundamental changes in our living arrangements? That doesn't sound right either.

So this is a tough question and it seems to call for difficult compromise. Surely when we set out in life we do not know everything about who we are; we meet stark surprises along the way: Guess what, I'm bisexual! Or: Guess what! It turns out I'm actually a woman in a man's body!

There is some support available if you look for it, and I do suggest that you reach out to others who have been through what you are going through.

I do not know too much, frankly, about the support available for married bisexual women, except that it is out there if you look for it. I do know this, though: True self-knowledge comes slowly. The facts are often buried. It can take months or years to undo our habit of pretending that we are not really what we increasingly appear to be, that we do not really want what it is increasingly clear that we do want, however surprising or disruptive our desire might be. ("Guess what, Dear! It is now clear as day to me: All my life I have really wanted to be ... an entomologist!") Time passes slowly, as we undo layer after layer of habitual "saying something other than what it is," as we begin to learn new habits of facing the way things are. We are complex creatures!

I will say, with a note of optimism, that you can show great courage and dignity in squarely facing yourself as you are, in accepting the fact that while you might not get everything you want, you do not have to kid yourself about what it is that you want.

That, it would seem, is a step you have taken: This is who I am. This is what I want.
Whether, and how, you attempt to get it, well, that is the question that now lies before you. I hope you can find ongoing help, support and comfort as you wrestle with that one.

October 09, 2007

Dignity Diner

October 12th-14th

View the artwork and watch video clips of Dignity Diner patrons, and listen to interviews with Lower Wacker Drive residents.

Opening Friday, October 12th 6-9pm
Oral History Listening Sessions Saturday & Sunday, October 13th & 14th 1pm
Closing Sunday, October 14th 3pm

Green Lantern Gallery
1511 N Milwaukee Ave, 2nd floor

October 04, 2007

Peace Corps at Starkville

Come hear regional recruiter and returned Peace Corps volunteer Debbie Curley share her experiences from Cameroon and tell you more about how you can sign up for an amazing adventure helping others at the same time!

MONDAY, OCTOBER 8

5:00-6:00pm
GlobeTalk
Montgomery Hall Room 15
Mississippi State University

TUESDAY, OCTOBER 9

1:00-4:00pm
MSU Career Fair
Humphrey Coliseum

For more information contact Debbie Curley at
dcurley@peacecorps.gov or 404.562.3477.