It's all relative.
Recently I came upon some bad news concerning someone whom I absolutely cannot stand! The mere sight of this person conjures up some not so kind (sane) thoughts, followed by physical illness. For the most part, I have been fortunate not to see this person too often - thankfully! When I heard of this person's misfortunes, I actually felt glad. After this short-lived happiness, I was mad at myself.
Recently I came upon some bad news concerning someone whom I absolutely cannot stand! The mere sight of this person conjures up some not so kind (sane) thoughts, followed by physical illness. For the most part, I have been fortunate not to see this person too often - thankfully! When I heard of this person's misfortunes, I actually felt glad. After this short-lived happiness, I was mad at myself.
Mad at the fact that I allowed this person to crawl under my skin, to make me wish harm onto another human being - regardless of how they treated me. Usually I do not allow people the pleasure of 'getting to me' - especially for them to know that they've achieved something only a few people have managed to do - but this person did their homework! After a few moments of simmering down, I finally came to the conclusion that this person is not worthy of ill thoughts. They are most definitely not worth all the energy of carrying on something that only bogs me down. Granted, this person made choices I would not have made - which ultimately led to their own demise. However I do not think this necessarily excuses this person's behavior.
In the end, I am not this person ... wallowing in negativity is like being this person. I want to someday be able to steer myself clear of all of this negativity and be able to move forward in whatever path I chose to take. A little bruised? Yes. There is no doubting it will take time but I have made that choice. A choice we can all make.
